by S.W - an 18 year old in detention
It’s a game again.
Going away again.
All because I picked up the monster again.
All because I gave up, again.
All because I gave in.
I let love take control.
I let the ice fill my lungs.
I let the monster fill my veins.
I let it all go to keep myself sane.
Thought giving my all would make them stay.
All I wanted was to feel warm from the monster.
And love from the leader.
All I felt was chills from the monster.
Sickness from the monster.
Sweat from the monster.
Pain and defeat from the monster.
I felt love and fear from the leader.
I felt bruises and pain.
I felt control and again,
The monster destroyed my life again.
But the leader destroyed the girl I once was,
The feelings I once had.
The love I once had.